As for the compulsion of sitting in church, it brings to mind this passage from Civil Disobedience, on the night they locked him in jail.
QuoteIn every threat and in every compliment there was a blunder; for they thought that my chief desire was to stand the other side of that stone wall. I could not but smile to see how industriously they locked the door on my meditations, which followed them out again without let or hindrance, and they were really all that was dangerous.
I suspect that you, likewise, are clever enough to use the time pleasantly and profitably ![]()
I am 31, and end up in churches occasionally with my family when I go to visit them. As Garden Dweller suggests, you'll have to decide for yourself one day whether you want them in your life. For my part, I can unhesitatingly answer 'yes' to that question. With time and distance come perspective.
And you have time!